So, I'm not exactly in the best of moods. I've been strangely depressed the last few days and I'm trying to work my way out of it. I think its just because a lot of things in my life have changed in the last 3 or 4 days and its been hard for me to adjust. So bare with me while I try to make sense of things.
The last while I've been dealing with some internal struggles. And by while I mean the last couple of years. I've reached a point in my life where things can change in a blink of an eye and where the tiniest decision that I make, could completely change my whole path. Its been amazing to me how much I have grown as I've come to realize that, but also how stuck I've become. Change is scary. I think that no matter what people say, no one actually likes change. Even those people who just let life happen, if something in that world changed for them, and made it so they had to start making active choices, they wouldn't like it. For me, I've tried very hard to take an active role in my life. To make sure that I have everything figured out and planned for. When I started college, I started to realize that my plans aren't always what really need to happen. But rather than learn from that realization, I continued to plan for everything that could happen. I would spend way too much time coming up with plans. Plans for every decision that I could make about some situation. I'd make lists and diagrams and goals and I'd do research and basically work myself into a panic and lose it. I thought about everything all the time. And even when I told myself I wasn't thinking, that I was just daydreaming, I was daydreaming about different paths I could take. Yes, normally they were completely ridiculous and unrealistic plans, like moving to London and becoming a fashion designer... But they were dreams nonetheless. And ultimately, they were plans. But they were the worst kind of plans. The kind where I envisioned an absolutely perfect life where I had complete control of everything and everything worked out just the way that it "should". And its amazing to realize how unhappy all that daydreaming has made me.
Its ironic because as I've made these realizations, I have felt like I've gained so much self-confidence and insight into myself. But really? I haven't. I'm not going to say that I haven't gained anything from it, because I have. For sure. But in some ways I was just telling myself what I wanted to hear. And when things didn't work out the way I had convinced myself that they would, I got really down on myself and everything was all the sudden my fault and there was some sort of deficiency that I had to make up for. All the sudden I was too shy. Too avoidant. Too out of touch. Too busy. Too analytic. Too... Whatever. But all the stuff that I've changed over the last few days have made me realize some things that I have actually known all along, but wont let myself be okay with. One: God is going to make us do things that we don't like. And more than likely you wont realize that you won't like them until you're already doing them and there is no way you can stop doing them. Two: God made me who I am for a reason. He gave me my personality, my weaknesses, my insecurities and my strengths for a reason. Whether or not I like those things, doesn't mean I get to change them, or that no matter how much I pray to get help in my sad attempts to change them, its not going to happen the way that I want it to. I have these major insecurities about things that make me WHO I AM and I need to learn to accept them. Now, I'm not saying that these things give me any free passes or excuses to not do things, because they don't. But I also have these things for a reason. And I have some really awesome strengths that also make me who I am, and some how, they all work together. I may not know how now, and I may not ever know how they work together, or how they will work in my benefit, I have ideas... But that doesn't mean that it is what is really going on, or that it is the whole picture.
I wish I didn't have to have these moments of insight every 6 months. And I wish that when I did have them, that they would stick with me longer than they do, or that it meant that some overwhelming and lasting change was taking place. But it doesn't. And though I know these things, I'm still going to struggle with letting go and doing what God has planned for me, rather than what I have planned for me. I'm probably going to continue making plans, and continue being frustrated when they don't work out. But one thing that I know I will change, is that instead of praying constantly to change things that I think I need to change, I will ask instead to know the things that God wants me to change, and ask for help with those things. I will also ask God to help me use the things that he has already given me, even the things that I don't like, to the best they can be used.
So this is what I mean by my title. Life Happens. It does. No force can change that. No plan can affect it. All we can do is go with it. Make what plans we need to make God's plans happen, and less painful. But even then, we don't really have control of it. We just have to remember that God does have a plan. And it is a perfect plan. And He loves us and would never make us do something that wasn't a manifestation of that love. So if you get nothing from this attempt to make myself feel better, at least know that God loves you. And I know that because God loves me. And I'm just as worthy of that love as the next person.
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
Thursday, October 27, 2011
Way Behind
The semester always kicks my butt when it comes to keeping this updated. Mostly the last few months have just been work and school. Its been a lot of stress, my motivation level is below zero and doing much of anything besides making it to class is a massive effort. But I will do this!
My friend just bought a condo that I will be moving into in a month. I helped her move in last night and it made me more excited to move in. I have to buy a bed, which is still weird to me, and expensive... but i'm still excited. Its going to be awesome.
Now I just have to focus on getting through this semester and getting ready for next, while preparing to take the GRE and apply to grad school. I'm banking on getting into BYU, which I probably shouldn't do, but I figure, if I don't get in, then its a sign. So here's hopin'.
My friend just bought a condo that I will be moving into in a month. I helped her move in last night and it made me more excited to move in. I have to buy a bed, which is still weird to me, and expensive... but i'm still excited. Its going to be awesome.
Now I just have to focus on getting through this semester and getting ready for next, while preparing to take the GRE and apply to grad school. I'm banking on getting into BYU, which I probably shouldn't do, but I figure, if I don't get in, then its a sign. So here's hopin'.
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
Wrap Up
The summer got crazy if you couldnt tell by my sudden drop off of posts. I just started working alot more and spent most days off at 7 peaks.
July... was boring.
August... I went to Cedar City and went to the Shakespeare Festival. I saw Midsummer Summer Night's Dream, Music Man and Noises Off! Plus I went down to Tuachan and saw Little Mermaid. It was awesome! They all were! And the best part was: It was all free!! Yea for having friends who work for USF. Noises Off! was the funniest thing i've ever seen in my life! I laughed so hard that I had an asthma attack! Music Man and Midsummer were awesome, very well done. Shakespeare festival was especially cool this year because friends that I had at SUU are now graduated and working, so many of them were acutally in the plays, it was fun to watch my friends preform for such a prestigious acting company. My friedn actually did the choreography for Music Man, and then was also in the play.
School of course has started and my motivation level is at -15 right now. Senioritis. Thats all I can say. I always complain about being tired and then the semester rolls around and I experience a whole new level of tired. So add work, emotional stress from work, and the fact that it is my senior year... Yeah not going so well. BUT! It is my last year. Come May and school will be a thing of the past, unless I decided to go to grad school. Which right now... I cant even think about it. My brain starts to smoke when I do.
This semester I'm taking: Interpersonal Relationships, Research Methods, Child Abuse, Neglect & Domestic Violence, Human Sexuality and Physiological Psychology. Its going to be quite the semester. Alot of what I'm learning in class, is stuff I already know or already do at work, and its been getting more and more frustrating. I'm hoping that as the semester progresses things will get more indepth and I'll actually have things that come up in class that I dont already know. And not all my classes are that way. Just most of them.
As september starts and life moves on a lot of new things that I've never really had to think about are coming up. As I look for a place to live after I graduate, I have to think about whether or not a want a furnished apartment or unfurnished, and if i have to buy furniture, where am i going to get it, do i want to just buy a twin bed, or do i want to buy a bed that will be big enough after i get married? What am I going to do after i graduate? Will i just work? Am I going to get bored without school in my life? All this crazy stuff that I've never had to think about.
All of this is quite stressful, but I'm looking forward to all the changes, I'm looking forward to seeing how life will turn out.
July... was boring.
August... I went to Cedar City and went to the Shakespeare Festival. I saw Midsummer Summer Night's Dream, Music Man and Noises Off! Plus I went down to Tuachan and saw Little Mermaid. It was awesome! They all were! And the best part was: It was all free!! Yea for having friends who work for USF. Noises Off! was the funniest thing i've ever seen in my life! I laughed so hard that I had an asthma attack! Music Man and Midsummer were awesome, very well done. Shakespeare festival was especially cool this year because friends that I had at SUU are now graduated and working, so many of them were acutally in the plays, it was fun to watch my friends preform for such a prestigious acting company. My friedn actually did the choreography for Music Man, and then was also in the play.
School of course has started and my motivation level is at -15 right now. Senioritis. Thats all I can say. I always complain about being tired and then the semester rolls around and I experience a whole new level of tired. So add work, emotional stress from work, and the fact that it is my senior year... Yeah not going so well. BUT! It is my last year. Come May and school will be a thing of the past, unless I decided to go to grad school. Which right now... I cant even think about it. My brain starts to smoke when I do.
This semester I'm taking: Interpersonal Relationships, Research Methods, Child Abuse, Neglect & Domestic Violence, Human Sexuality and Physiological Psychology. Its going to be quite the semester. Alot of what I'm learning in class, is stuff I already know or already do at work, and its been getting more and more frustrating. I'm hoping that as the semester progresses things will get more indepth and I'll actually have things that come up in class that I dont already know. And not all my classes are that way. Just most of them.
As september starts and life moves on a lot of new things that I've never really had to think about are coming up. As I look for a place to live after I graduate, I have to think about whether or not a want a furnished apartment or unfurnished, and if i have to buy furniture, where am i going to get it, do i want to just buy a twin bed, or do i want to buy a bed that will be big enough after i get married? What am I going to do after i graduate? Will i just work? Am I going to get bored without school in my life? All this crazy stuff that I've never had to think about.
All of this is quite stressful, but I'm looking forward to all the changes, I'm looking forward to seeing how life will turn out.
Thursday, June 30, 2011
June...
June went by so fast i barely even noticed it. I feel like time speeds up with each passing year. Which some days, is really nice. But other times it makes me feel like i didnt accomplish anything in the last month. Which because its summer, I'm kind of :) June was full of work and baseball games. The boys are improving rapidly and Caleb may turn out to be a stellar pitcher! Little league umps make my blood pressure sky rocket though. Its a shame that the games become more about the parents and the umps than the kids who are actually on the field playing. But it was good season all in all.
With the beginning of my last year of my undergraduate degreeing looming on the horizon I've had to start thinking about what i want to do for grad school. Until recently the only option that i would give myself was byu, but the closer it gets, the less i feel like that is what i want to do. I've decided that i dont want to work with eating disorder for the rest of my life like it thought i did. (Thank goodness i figured that out now) but I've been thinking that i really want to focus on PTSD. Its something that i have come in contact with a lot where i work now and besides the fact that i find it totally fascinating, i feel like it is something that i have a lot of skill working with. Its not an easy area, and it emcompasses a lot of people and situations. But i had been thinking about where i could get the best experience with PTSD and so i've been looking into getting my degree through the navy and them working with them and a psychologist for a few years. Its been a little bit of a shock for everyone I've told, but its has stayed in my mind and so thats what I'm working towards right now. We'll see how it goes.
The rest of the summer will hopefully go by more slowly. I've become a little burned out from work and i'm looking forward to my planned vacations. But adding school to my work load again will be quite the adventure. But I only have 9 classes left and then i can graduate! Again!
With the beginning of my last year of my undergraduate degreeing looming on the horizon I've had to start thinking about what i want to do for grad school. Until recently the only option that i would give myself was byu, but the closer it gets, the less i feel like that is what i want to do. I've decided that i dont want to work with eating disorder for the rest of my life like it thought i did. (Thank goodness i figured that out now) but I've been thinking that i really want to focus on PTSD. Its something that i have come in contact with a lot where i work now and besides the fact that i find it totally fascinating, i feel like it is something that i have a lot of skill working with. Its not an easy area, and it emcompasses a lot of people and situations. But i had been thinking about where i could get the best experience with PTSD and so i've been looking into getting my degree through the navy and them working with them and a psychologist for a few years. Its been a little bit of a shock for everyone I've told, but its has stayed in my mind and so thats what I'm working towards right now. We'll see how it goes.
The rest of the summer will hopefully go by more slowly. I've become a little burned out from work and i'm looking forward to my planned vacations. But adding school to my work load again will be quite the adventure. But I only have 9 classes left and then i can graduate! Again!
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
Rain and Sunshine
Rain and sunshine. That is how that last little bit has been. In more than the weather sense of it. Its crazy how things have worked out lately.
Summers are hard for me. During the school year I have so much to do that I dont have time to think about anything but work and school. But I have so much time during the summer that I just think TOO much. I've been reading a lot and the books that I'm reading right now, I related to the characters a lot and it has brought up a lot of things that I thought I had gotten over. But it has given me some interesting opportunities. That hopefully will work out well. Crossing my fingers. :)
I hoping that this summer will be a good one and that there will be lots of new adventures and exciting experiences. I'm looking forward to baseball season starting up for real. I REEEALLY want to go to an Owls game. Or even just little league games. So hopefully the sunshine will stick around. In more ways than one. This will be a summer of change. And it will be fun to see what happens.
Summers are hard for me. During the school year I have so much to do that I dont have time to think about anything but work and school. But I have so much time during the summer that I just think TOO much. I've been reading a lot and the books that I'm reading right now, I related to the characters a lot and it has brought up a lot of things that I thought I had gotten over. But it has given me some interesting opportunities. That hopefully will work out well. Crossing my fingers. :)
I hoping that this summer will be a good one and that there will be lots of new adventures and exciting experiences. I'm looking forward to baseball season starting up for real. I REEEALLY want to go to an Owls game. Or even just little league games. So hopefully the sunshine will stick around. In more ways than one. This will be a summer of change. And it will be fun to see what happens.
Friday, April 29, 2011
Let the Summer Begin!
April went by so quickly, i bareley noticed it! This semester was a good one, not too crazy but enough to keep me busy. Work has helped out with that too. I took my last final a couple days ago and have been catching up on things at home that got neglected all semester. I've been working on my room and bathroom, trying to create more space so that when my sister moves back home we'll hopefully both be able to fit into our tiny space. I spent today and yesterday putting together shelves and moving furniture to make space. Hopefully it will all work out as planned. My sister and I are close, but we both are stubborn and have to have things done our way. And we have A LOT of stuff!
I went down to Cedar City and Mesquite/Bunkerville to visit my friends a couple weeks ago. It was great. It made me miss SUU more than I already do. Especially the music. I miss having free concerts that i can go to every week, or just walking by the music building and being able to hear people practicing. I actually ended up getting really sick while i was down there and come home to Bronchitis and a week of forced vacation. I had to have an inhaler with a special attachment because i couldnt take a deep enough breath to use it normally. Going back to work was interesting because it was a few days before i could breathe well enough again to talk much above a whisper, and trying to get 12 girls' attention at that volume... not easy. But it worked out.
Today was a monumental day in history, well okay, not monumental... but it was a big deal to me! Lol. I watched the recap of the royal wedding this morning, while listening to much complaining from my little brother who couldn't understand why i was so interested in watching a wedding for people i don't even know. I tried to explain to him its signifiance to me, and it just didnt work. Anyway, it was cool and very touching. I was joking last night with my mom about how i had to watch my first crushes wedding and she thought that was super funny. But it was cool to be able to watch it, even if it wasn't live (I wasnt going to stay up until 2am to get to do that, I'm not THAT obsessed!). Now I'll be able to tell my daughters about it the way my mom told me about watching Princess Diana's and Prince Charles' wedding. Though hopefully this royal couple's story will not end as quickly or as tragically as the last one did.
Now I'm on to summer. I've already started my annual summer reading frenzy and made a list of book that i want to get to. Baseball season has begun, though it has been a cold and wet one without very many games yet because of the muddy fields. Hopefully the weather will decide to cooperate soon and the season will be a good one. Work will hopefully keep me busy so i don't go crazy with boredom like i do most years. And at the end of the summer, i will begin my second to last semester of my bachelor's degree. After 5 LOOOOOONG years, it will finally be over May 2012. Only 9 more classes!! I'm so happy!
I went down to Cedar City and Mesquite/Bunkerville to visit my friends a couple weeks ago. It was great. It made me miss SUU more than I already do. Especially the music. I miss having free concerts that i can go to every week, or just walking by the music building and being able to hear people practicing. I actually ended up getting really sick while i was down there and come home to Bronchitis and a week of forced vacation. I had to have an inhaler with a special attachment because i couldnt take a deep enough breath to use it normally. Going back to work was interesting because it was a few days before i could breathe well enough again to talk much above a whisper, and trying to get 12 girls' attention at that volume... not easy. But it worked out.
Today was a monumental day in history, well okay, not monumental... but it was a big deal to me! Lol. I watched the recap of the royal wedding this morning, while listening to much complaining from my little brother who couldn't understand why i was so interested in watching a wedding for people i don't even know. I tried to explain to him its signifiance to me, and it just didnt work. Anyway, it was cool and very touching. I was joking last night with my mom about how i had to watch my first crushes wedding and she thought that was super funny. But it was cool to be able to watch it, even if it wasn't live (I wasnt going to stay up until 2am to get to do that, I'm not THAT obsessed!). Now I'll be able to tell my daughters about it the way my mom told me about watching Princess Diana's and Prince Charles' wedding. Though hopefully this royal couple's story will not end as quickly or as tragically as the last one did.
Now I'm on to summer. I've already started my annual summer reading frenzy and made a list of book that i want to get to. Baseball season has begun, though it has been a cold and wet one without very many games yet because of the muddy fields. Hopefully the weather will decide to cooperate soon and the season will be a good one. Work will hopefully keep me busy so i don't go crazy with boredom like i do most years. And at the end of the summer, i will begin my second to last semester of my bachelor's degree. After 5 LOOOOOONG years, it will finally be over May 2012. Only 9 more classes!! I'm so happy!
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Like a Lion in Every Way
This month has been crazy. Its gotten the point that when i tell people that i'm working full time and going to school full time, instead of following it with "oh its great! and it really isnt as hard as people say it is" I now beat them to the punch with a mental "you're crazy" look for myself. As i say, yes, i know i'm crazy. for some reason i always forget what march and april are like during the semester. and then when it comes, i'm very rudely reminded. But! I have been able to stay on top things. I've even been turing assignments in early. I have 2 big projects left, and thats it. The rest is just busy work that professors feel obligated to assign, in attempt to prove to the world that they are actually teaching something. Lol.
Besides school, this month has just been insane. I've really had to do an overhaul on myself to keep sane. Work has been kicking my trash, and i have had to learn how to be mean. Mean for me anyway. Strict and tough are better words for what i've had to learn to be i guess. It has just seemed like everything that could possibly go wrong and happen at a treatment center, has. I've been taking lots of mental health days (or hours) to just decompress. But i'm hoping that things will slow down here soon and everyone will be ok.
I turn 22 in a few days. And though, birthdays are really no longer a big deal, it still has given me alot of things to think about. In one of my classes we've had to do alot of self-evaluation papers, and its made me realize how far i've come in my life. I'm not perfect. And to be honest, i dont really want to be. I mean i would like to stop screwing up, but my inperfections are what make me me. And i rather enjoy being me. Its been an interesting year. I've learned alot and grown alot and made a lot of changes to my life. Things have really started to look up, and i can tell that there is something big coming my way and i'm excited to know what it is.
Besides school, this month has just been insane. I've really had to do an overhaul on myself to keep sane. Work has been kicking my trash, and i have had to learn how to be mean. Mean for me anyway. Strict and tough are better words for what i've had to learn to be i guess. It has just seemed like everything that could possibly go wrong and happen at a treatment center, has. I've been taking lots of mental health days (or hours) to just decompress. But i'm hoping that things will slow down here soon and everyone will be ok.
I turn 22 in a few days. And though, birthdays are really no longer a big deal, it still has given me alot of things to think about. In one of my classes we've had to do alot of self-evaluation papers, and its made me realize how far i've come in my life. I'm not perfect. And to be honest, i dont really want to be. I mean i would like to stop screwing up, but my inperfections are what make me me. And i rather enjoy being me. Its been an interesting year. I've learned alot and grown alot and made a lot of changes to my life. Things have really started to look up, and i can tell that there is something big coming my way and i'm excited to know what it is.
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Good ol' February
I've decided that February is my least favorite month. Here are my reason (in no particular order):
1. Valentine's Day, pretty much its a lame holiday. and i'm not just saying that because i'm single. it just is. flowers and chocolate are only cool gifts once. and you can only own so much jewelry.
2. The weather loves to syck you out. Take the last few days for instance. i have had to wear a coat to school. i thought about breaking out the flip flops. but no. its supposed to be cold again tomorrow and snow on thurday. lame.
3. its the month before my birthday. enough said.
4. its moving through the semester... but not quiet at the end.
so there you go. february...not so fabulous.
anyway. things are going well. school is picking up and trying to kill me as usual. i'm working full time now, so my idea of time doesnt really exist anymore. BUT! all my homework has been turned in on time... except for one assignment. i actually had a little bit of a panic attack this morning when i looked at my planner and saw an assignment that was due yesterday that i didnt rememebre turning in yesterday. and then i remembered that i turned it in early and everything was ok. lol.
work is good. its been a little bit dramatic lately, but that is totally unavoidable. i have had to remind myself from time to time that i really do love my job. but, i do. i love it. i just got all signed up for medical/dental/vision benefits through work. i even have a life insurance policy now. weird. it felt very grown up and kind of surreal to sign up for them. but its a nice change.
My car is deciding to be a pain again, but luckily, i've been able to handle it so far. life is pretty good actually. not much to complain about. i love it.
1. Valentine's Day, pretty much its a lame holiday. and i'm not just saying that because i'm single. it just is. flowers and chocolate are only cool gifts once. and you can only own so much jewelry.
2. The weather loves to syck you out. Take the last few days for instance. i have had to wear a coat to school. i thought about breaking out the flip flops. but no. its supposed to be cold again tomorrow and snow on thurday. lame.
3. its the month before my birthday. enough said.
4. its moving through the semester... but not quiet at the end.
so there you go. february...not so fabulous.
anyway. things are going well. school is picking up and trying to kill me as usual. i'm working full time now, so my idea of time doesnt really exist anymore. BUT! all my homework has been turned in on time... except for one assignment. i actually had a little bit of a panic attack this morning when i looked at my planner and saw an assignment that was due yesterday that i didnt rememebre turning in yesterday. and then i remembered that i turned it in early and everything was ok. lol.
work is good. its been a little bit dramatic lately, but that is totally unavoidable. i have had to remind myself from time to time that i really do love my job. but, i do. i love it. i just got all signed up for medical/dental/vision benefits through work. i even have a life insurance policy now. weird. it felt very grown up and kind of surreal to sign up for them. but its a nice change.
My car is deciding to be a pain again, but luckily, i've been able to handle it so far. life is pretty good actually. not much to complain about. i love it.
Friday, January 21, 2011
Apparently I need an editor
Ok so my last few post have been from the middle of night. That is my excuse for them not entirely making sense and i'm sticking to it! But the good news is!! Drum roll please!! I dont have to work graves anymore! I know! Exciting! I got a full time shift at work, and i'm sooooo excited about it. It works well with school so yes, i will be working full time and going to school full time. But i'm super women remember?! lol actually it wont be that bad. the shift is mostly swing shifts (3-11) and its only 4 days a week. Plus i'm now eligible for benefits and i've heard that they offer really good benefits which will be nice. And a super big plus is i actually will have specific patients that i will be working one on one with. Its giving me a head start for grad school. I'm kind of nervous about it right now. I have my first meetings with them tomorrow and i dont really know what i'm doing. lol. so hopefully they do! thats one of the great things about my job (and a bad one too) the patients sometimes know more than i do about the program and whats going on. which makes sense because they're living in it. so it makes it nice when i have questions and there isnt another tech around that knows the answer. I just ask a patient! But it also makes it not so good when they say that the rules say they can do something i dont know if they really can or they are just saying that. i'm all the sudden feeling alot of empathy substitute teachers... But yeah. I'm excited. This week has been a little crazy because its family week at work. which means lots of tears, demanding parents, family therapy, and lightbulbs (meaning you meet their parents and go "ooooh so thats why you're here." which makes me really sad.) so yes. its my second family week that i've worked and i have to say that i dont like it anymore than i did the first time. its a good thing to have and i understand the value of it. it just stresses me, and all the other techs (and all the patients actually) out. so i will be happy when its over and life at the center returns to normal. or at least our version of normal. ;)
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
A Whole New Year
Ah 2011... What wonders will you bring me? I'm starting to wonder why i make new years resolutions cuz i never follow through with them. Though i actually have on one of them. but thats cuz its easy. So here are the ones i've made (along with my progress):
1. Catch up with my family's old testement reading plan and stay caught up.
progress: havent even started. still on Duet. 6 I'm supposed to be to 1Kings 17 by the end of the month. Ha!
2. Exercise 3 times a week for a least a half hour
Progress: we got a pass to the orem rec center and i walked a mile around the track. go me. ;)
3. Say morning prayers
Progress: Hasnt happened yet
4.Put at least $50 from each pay check in savings towards a graduation trip.
Progress: Done it! Go me! Ps i still dont know where i want to go. so i'm open to suggestions!
5. Get a 4.0 this semester
Progress: I'm actually completely up to date in all my classes! I know, weird.
6. Do visiting teaching every month
progress: nope.
So there ya go. Maybe i'll check in every month to see how its going. prolly not though. cuz like i said, i almost never follow through with these and who wants to watch me fail? i mean seriously.
So my classes this semester are AWESOME! except for my institute class. nightmare! but i get free parking for going so go i shall!
Beyond that my life has been boring. I love my job (though i hate working graves). I love my classes. I have to come of with a list of 100 life goals for one of my classes. so far i have 55 i think. its been a fun assignment. right now i'm thinking alot about grad school and where i want to go and if i want to take a year off... when i'm going to take the the STUPID gre... blah. its kind of stressful. partly because i've kind of decided that i want to go out of state, i want to get the "beyond utah" experience. but that just means i would have to move and not know anyone and have to money to do it... which would be ALOT of money, grad programs are already expensive at living expenses on top of it... but we'll see. what is supposed to happen with happen.
1. Catch up with my family's old testement reading plan and stay caught up.
progress: havent even started. still on Duet. 6 I'm supposed to be to 1Kings 17 by the end of the month. Ha!
2. Exercise 3 times a week for a least a half hour
Progress: we got a pass to the orem rec center and i walked a mile around the track. go me. ;)
3. Say morning prayers
Progress: Hasnt happened yet
4.Put at least $50 from each pay check in savings towards a graduation trip.
Progress: Done it! Go me! Ps i still dont know where i want to go. so i'm open to suggestions!
5. Get a 4.0 this semester
Progress: I'm actually completely up to date in all my classes! I know, weird.
6. Do visiting teaching every month
progress: nope.
So there ya go. Maybe i'll check in every month to see how its going. prolly not though. cuz like i said, i almost never follow through with these and who wants to watch me fail? i mean seriously.
So my classes this semester are AWESOME! except for my institute class. nightmare! but i get free parking for going so go i shall!
Beyond that my life has been boring. I love my job (though i hate working graves). I love my classes. I have to come of with a list of 100 life goals for one of my classes. so far i have 55 i think. its been a fun assignment. right now i'm thinking alot about grad school and where i want to go and if i want to take a year off... when i'm going to take the the STUPID gre... blah. its kind of stressful. partly because i've kind of decided that i want to go out of state, i want to get the "beyond utah" experience. but that just means i would have to move and not know anyone and have to money to do it... which would be ALOT of money, grad programs are already expensive at living expenses on top of it... but we'll see. what is supposed to happen with happen.
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