Pushed Around

Forever am I alone
Never knowing what to do
Sometimes I just wish
I could do what I want to do
I'm sick of being the nice one
The one who "understands"
I'm really not the nice one
I'm really not the cool one
I'm really just the one
That cries at night
When no ones watching
The one who doesn't know
What to say
I'm really just the one
That's always pushed around
When I finally do speak up
No one actually hears me
They look at me
And I know
That no one really cares
What I do
Or what I say
Because I'm just the one
Who's always pushed around


Its been a really long time since I've written poems... and now i remember why. They're always depressing. *sigh*
This last weekend we went down to Castle Dale to spend time with Danny's boyfriend's family. It was good. Not all that much to report about it.

STATS IS OVER!!!!!!

Almost. All i have to do it study for and take my final. BUT!!! I dont have another class!! WOOT! I had my last class tonight. In which i learned how to do all the stuff i've been learning over the semester on the computer. So i went from spending 15 minutes-an hour and a half per proplem, to about a minute per problem. BAH!! I wished i had know how to do this all semester! it would have saved me hours and hours and hours and hours.... and hours....
I feel as though this week as been pretty productive. I finished a class, I've worked tons, got my temple recommend renewed, got set apart for my calling, regisgtered for next semster... now lets just hope i can keep the momentum up and actually DO my calling (i'm visiting teaching supervisor).
I'm really hoping that my classes next semester dont kill me. I've been going only half time for 2 semesters now, and next semester its back to full time. Human Anatomy, Intro to Sociology, Anthropology of People and Cultures, and Abnormal Psych. I'm really excited for my anthropology and abnormal psych classes. Not so much for the other too. Soc is just boring, and anatomy... well... lets just say i only went to my bio class three times... me and science... non bien.
I really cant wait till summer. Granted, i'm not going to have as much time this summer as i did last summer because i'm going to (hopefully) be working two jobs. But at least there will be no school. and i dont have to feel guilty every time i pick up a novel instead of a textbook.
Basically... I've had a pretty good week. Better than most have been in a long time. Now if it would just warm up a bit more and stay that way....