Not Much

I feel the need to update even though my life is so uneventful... Nothing much exciting happening. I'm going to Mesquite today, yes, again. I go almost every weekend. I really love it there. Its the next best thing to home. Could never live there cuz its way to small and way to freaking hot... but i like visiting Shaye's family.
I've started having test anxiety for the first time in my testing career. Its awful. I hate it. And i don't know what to do about it. I've just started having to tell myself thats its ok to fail... since i do it every time. Math is kicking my butt. And you know, i could blame me... you know if i didn't spend 6 hours studying for tests, 3 hours on each assignment, hours on the phone getting help... if i didn't actually go to my teachers office to see if a one on one environment helps her teaching... but i do all that... so, i'm blaming my teacher. Do you know what she said to my class the other day? It made me so mad, ok so my WHOLE ENTIRE CLASS was BEGGING for another day on the section we were on because NO ONE got it. She said no, cuz we're behind. and some kid said well isn't more important to actually learn then be on schedule? and she said, and i quote, (drum roll please) yes it is so why aren't any of you learning anything? Yup, not even kidding thats what she said. I was so so SOOO pissed. So if i fail this class, its not my fault. I tried. i worked my tail off for this class, and i'm going to keep working at it, but i still might fail. but if i do, i'll just take it again, this time at UVU so I'll be home and mom can help me in person rather than over the phone.
Other than that... Not much. things have gone back to craziness in my apartment. our crazy roommate has become fake and annoying again. i really thought things were going to work out... guess not. My roommates from last year, who are now my next door neighbors, need to be slapped a couple times... and my one friend (other than Shaye) from last year, is acting weird too. Shaye and I think he's having girl issues... poor guy...
Anywho... I'm conquering my fear of the Virgin River Gorge today. I'm so freaking scared. I hate canyons... and disels... but combine the two and add people who drive 95 miles an hour through the thing and get pissed when people don't drive that way too, ( i know from first hand experience because one of those people would be Shaye)... I'm gonna die... or just drive really slow! oh well i guess.