I feel the need to update even though my life is so uneventful... Nothing much exciting happening. I'm going to Mesquite today, yes, again. I go almost every weekend. I really love it there. Its the next best thing to home. Could never live there cuz its way to small and way to freaking hot... but i like visiting Shaye's family.
I've started having test anxiety for the first time in my testing career. Its awful. I hate it. And i don't know what to do about it. I've just started having to tell myself thats its ok to fail... since i do it every time. Math is kicking my butt. And you know, i could blame me... you know if i didn't spend 6 hours studying for tests, 3 hours on each assignment, hours on the phone getting help... if i didn't actually go to my teachers office to see if a one on one environment helps her teaching... but i do all that... so, i'm blaming my teacher. Do you know what she said to my class the other day? It made me so mad, ok so my WHOLE ENTIRE CLASS was BEGGING for another day on the section we were on because NO ONE got it. She said no, cuz we're behind. and some kid said well isn't more important to actually learn then be on schedule? and she said, and i quote, (drum roll please) yes it is so why aren't any of you learning anything? Yup, not even kidding thats what she said. I was so so SOOO pissed. So if i fail this class, its not my fault. I tried. i worked my tail off for this class, and i'm going to keep working at it, but i still might fail. but if i do, i'll just take it again, this time at UVU so I'll be home and mom can help me in person rather than over the phone.
Other than that... Not much. things have gone back to craziness in my apartment. our crazy roommate has become fake and annoying again. i really thought things were going to work out... guess not. My roommates from last year, who are now my next door neighbors, need to be slapped a couple times... and my one friend (other than Shaye) from last year, is acting weird too. Shaye and I think he's having girl issues... poor guy...
Anywho... I'm conquering my fear of the Virgin River Gorge today. I'm so freaking scared. I hate canyons... and disels... but combine the two and add people who drive 95 miles an hour through the thing and get pissed when people don't drive that way too, ( i know from first hand experience because one of those people would be Shaye)... I'm gonna die... or just drive really slow! oh well i guess.
Friday, October 24, 2008
Friday, October 10, 2008
Twilight the Movie and other news
AHHHHH! I'm dying! I just watched the third and final trailer for the movie and I can't wait!!! (its on youtube if anyone wants to watch it) I know i promised i wouldn't dedicated an entire entry to Twilight again, so i won't, but I'm so syked its insane! What is today, the 10th? so only like 41 days till it opens... I dont know exactly and it would take too long to actually figure out, so thats my unofficial count down! *deep breath* Alright now that i'm breathing properly again i will move on.
So i got my english essay back about 15 minutes ago, and i got an A! Yess! Its my first one. I should just always be sarcastic in my writing, its easier that way, but when you have to write about nature... sarcasm doesn't really work. This last essay had to be about my relationship with an animal. I know, weird. So i wrote about why i hate dogs. Cuz i do, i hate them. Actually, in all honesty, they scare me. Or make me nervous i guess whould be a better word for it. So yeah, i wrote about the stupid dog across the street when i was like four that nearly ripped my arm off. I slightly exaggerated the experience... But i was four when it happened so i don't really rememeber what i said, or much else other then the stuff they use to sew you up and the dog lashing out and clamping down on my arm. So i made some stuff up and embellished some other stuff... But i got an A! So thats all i care about!
This weekend is Shaye's birthday and she's going home and then going up to Salt Lake (i had to hold my breath every time she mentioned it or else i was worried i would invite myself along and beg to be dropped off in orem) So I'm going to be a hermit all weekend. AND its supposed to snow tomorrow. So i'm going to be spending my saturday in my room with a book or a movie and hot chocolate under my blankets cursing the weather. Yes, I am ridiculous. But hey, maybe i'll actually do some homework too. I doubt it, but i like to think i will cuz it makes me feel better. At least i don't have to go to stupid work tomorrow. Pretty sure that would make the weather seem even worse. Uck. I hate snow. Its not even Halloween yet for pete's sake! Its not supposed to snow yet! *bursts into tears* And i have to walk to school in this henious thing we so loveingly call snow! My friend Alyssa and i came up with this awesome reason why God should uninvent snow in high school. Because he wants people to live right? and snow causes car accidents, which in turn causes death so he should uninvent it. hahahahahahaha... I know, its horrible. But i was a sophomore in high school, cut me a little slack.
I have nearly almost completed all that i need to do in order to finish transfering to UVU. FINALLY! Remind me never to transfer again. Its too much of a pain.
But as i told Caleb last night on the phone as i was fighting back tears... I'm very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very VERY excited to move home!
You know, its funny how when you get homesick you all the sudden miss all the things that normally drive you crazy. Like last night Miles called me to ask me about a book and then he went off on one of his little Miles tangents that could have gone on for hours if mom hadn't have stopped him and i'm sitting there listening to him tell me about birdzilla and aliens and area 51 and what he would do if he found out there were aliens in the atmosphere (he would get binoculars and go look at them in case you were wondering) and i'm thinking, "I WANNA GO HOME!" I'm like fighting back tears as he's telling me all this crazy stuff because i actually miss it! (give me about 5 minutes of acutally being home and i'll tell him to shut up and leave me alone, but right now i could listen to it for hours.) And then he got off the phone and he wasn't doing his dishes and mom yelled at him and i STARTED CRYING! not kidding. and then caleb got on the phone and was yelling at joshua to do this and do that in Zelda and i just wanted to die. oh its awful. Thanksgiving isnt that far away right?
Lets see, what else is exciting... I wrote my first APA style paper yesterday. It sucked... but at least it got in on time. Thats all i actually care about. I got a letter from my dear friend Nick Snow yesterday... Which also made me cry. I really didnt think i would miss that kid. But when i get a letter from him and he makes me laugh and then tells me to stop laughing i can't help it! I miss being able to go over to his apartment and just whine "Nick i need a hug" and then everything is ok. Weird. This is nick we're talking about. The guy who made 9th grade biology more barable because he actually introduced himself to the shy girl sitting next to him and then spent the rest of the year drawing flowers on my notes and whispering answers across the hall on the tests that we were gone for... the answers were prolly wrong. we were so bad at that class. i spent the rest of 9th grade and high school defending him from the horrible mean people who made fun of him constantly... and now he's on a mission... and i actually miss him!!! i hate missing people... it sucks. and its so emotionally draining.
So i got my english essay back about 15 minutes ago, and i got an A! Yess! Its my first one. I should just always be sarcastic in my writing, its easier that way, but when you have to write about nature... sarcasm doesn't really work. This last essay had to be about my relationship with an animal. I know, weird. So i wrote about why i hate dogs. Cuz i do, i hate them. Actually, in all honesty, they scare me. Or make me nervous i guess whould be a better word for it. So yeah, i wrote about the stupid dog across the street when i was like four that nearly ripped my arm off. I slightly exaggerated the experience... But i was four when it happened so i don't really rememeber what i said, or much else other then the stuff they use to sew you up and the dog lashing out and clamping down on my arm. So i made some stuff up and embellished some other stuff... But i got an A! So thats all i care about!
This weekend is Shaye's birthday and she's going home and then going up to Salt Lake (i had to hold my breath every time she mentioned it or else i was worried i would invite myself along and beg to be dropped off in orem) So I'm going to be a hermit all weekend. AND its supposed to snow tomorrow. So i'm going to be spending my saturday in my room with a book or a movie and hot chocolate under my blankets cursing the weather. Yes, I am ridiculous. But hey, maybe i'll actually do some homework too. I doubt it, but i like to think i will cuz it makes me feel better. At least i don't have to go to stupid work tomorrow. Pretty sure that would make the weather seem even worse. Uck. I hate snow. Its not even Halloween yet for pete's sake! Its not supposed to snow yet! *bursts into tears* And i have to walk to school in this henious thing we so loveingly call snow! My friend Alyssa and i came up with this awesome reason why God should uninvent snow in high school. Because he wants people to live right? and snow causes car accidents, which in turn causes death so he should uninvent it. hahahahahahaha... I know, its horrible. But i was a sophomore in high school, cut me a little slack.
I have nearly almost completed all that i need to do in order to finish transfering to UVU. FINALLY! Remind me never to transfer again. Its too much of a pain.
But as i told Caleb last night on the phone as i was fighting back tears... I'm very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very VERY excited to move home!
You know, its funny how when you get homesick you all the sudden miss all the things that normally drive you crazy. Like last night Miles called me to ask me about a book and then he went off on one of his little Miles tangents that could have gone on for hours if mom hadn't have stopped him and i'm sitting there listening to him tell me about birdzilla and aliens and area 51 and what he would do if he found out there were aliens in the atmosphere (he would get binoculars and go look at them in case you were wondering) and i'm thinking, "I WANNA GO HOME!" I'm like fighting back tears as he's telling me all this crazy stuff because i actually miss it! (give me about 5 minutes of acutally being home and i'll tell him to shut up and leave me alone, but right now i could listen to it for hours.) And then he got off the phone and he wasn't doing his dishes and mom yelled at him and i STARTED CRYING! not kidding. and then caleb got on the phone and was yelling at joshua to do this and do that in Zelda and i just wanted to die. oh its awful. Thanksgiving isnt that far away right?
Lets see, what else is exciting... I wrote my first APA style paper yesterday. It sucked... but at least it got in on time. Thats all i actually care about. I got a letter from my dear friend Nick Snow yesterday... Which also made me cry. I really didnt think i would miss that kid. But when i get a letter from him and he makes me laugh and then tells me to stop laughing i can't help it! I miss being able to go over to his apartment and just whine "Nick i need a hug" and then everything is ok. Weird. This is nick we're talking about. The guy who made 9th grade biology more barable because he actually introduced himself to the shy girl sitting next to him and then spent the rest of the year drawing flowers on my notes and whispering answers across the hall on the tests that we were gone for... the answers were prolly wrong. we were so bad at that class. i spent the rest of 9th grade and high school defending him from the horrible mean people who made fun of him constantly... and now he's on a mission... and i actually miss him!!! i hate missing people... it sucks. and its so emotionally draining.
Friday, October 3, 2008
Dear Little Sister,
I promised i'd write a letter back to you. And since i suck at it, I'm doing this way.
So, I really don't know what to write. there is so much that i want to say, that i don't think could express in words. i miss you so much.
I miss staying up late at night laying bed, laughing at everything and saying good night a million times and then starting a new conversation after each one.
I miss laughing at you when you fall asleep in the first 5 minutes of a movie.
I miss asking you "what should i wear tomorrow?" or "does this look good?"
I miss laughing at your jokes that no one else finds funny. The not being able to breathe kind of laughing.
I miss telling you "he's an idiot, why do you care so much?"
But most of all, i miss being able to give you a hug whenever you need one and you giving me a hug when i need one.
You're an amazing, beautiful, talented, smart young woman who has the potential to do anything. I love you so so so so so much! I'm the luckiest big sister in the world!
Love you a million Swedish Fish!
So, I really don't know what to write. there is so much that i want to say, that i don't think could express in words. i miss you so much.
I miss staying up late at night laying bed, laughing at everything and saying good night a million times and then starting a new conversation after each one.
I miss laughing at you when you fall asleep in the first 5 minutes of a movie.
I miss asking you "what should i wear tomorrow?" or "does this look good?"
I miss laughing at your jokes that no one else finds funny. The not being able to breathe kind of laughing.
I miss telling you "he's an idiot, why do you care so much?"
But most of all, i miss being able to give you a hug whenever you need one and you giving me a hug when i need one.
You're an amazing, beautiful, talented, smart young woman who has the potential to do anything. I love you so so so so so much! I'm the luckiest big sister in the world!
Love you a million Swedish Fish!
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